It's a strange sort of a set up. He injured her soul and head quite literally and yet screamed of the love he has for her. From a chatter she transformed into a silent extremist. A year and a half of her favourite fairy tale collapsed right infront of her eyes and she heard every word of that silence loud and clear. He loves her yet exhibits bipolar tenacity. She sips her tears every day and he is unaware. Her head injury denies her a peaceful nights sleep. She is horribly shaken and tries pot. The patterns and visuals she sees take her to a parallel world. He denies her the love and apology she deserves to serve his reluctance.
She has a medical condition out of nowhere. She's away from her bloodline and lives each day as it comes trying to fight her severe headaches. Did her love blind him enough not to see her pain!? Or is it the infidelity that ate them up!? Is it his parents or is it his suspension from reality!?
Is it being a Man !? to raise your hand on the woman you admire and want your kids with!? Introverts die a certain death not being themselves half the time they live, yet their actions are quite loud.
Liberal women raised in our society who are born to love a man for who he is, irrespective his financial health are considered emotional fools. The most meaningful explanation to a failed marriage is it didn't work out, only if we were inclined on its not working out - how would it!? Ever !? Please remember why you started and if you don't relate with the butterflies in the stomach, leave.
I have watched numerous movies, ate buckets of popcorn yet it's a simple message that sums it all 'whatever you allow will continue'.
Allow yourself freedom, dignity, loyalty and honesty.
Walk out if he is not giving you the love, respect and loyalty you deserve. You can not fix his relationship with his father. You can not fix his parents decorative marriage. You can not blame your love for not being strong enough to break through. It's okaye to bake yourself a batch of brownies that make you fall in love with yourself again. Don't justify, it's not a crime to be solo to try new things in life, and it's never too late.
One day all of this will make sense and that day you will have a face pronouncing how beautifully you lived.
Never let anyone tell you they spent on your hospital bills because at that time you were unfit. Grow brave. Rise up and contribute to a medical aid somewhere and forget about it. And yes if they want their bill reversed in their bank account. Write them a cheque and a note saying Thank you.
P.S : I'm right here if any of you need me. I'll understand not only because I mean all of the above but also because I know exactly how it feels!!
Suicide is not an answer <3 not even remotely close <3
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