The night you fell off my mind

Matured with the damaged years, between the hastiness unfold, playing back a decision in my head that saved me and transitioned. No more talks on the morbidity of compulsive togetherness.
It is easier to find people who will volunteer to die, than to find those who are willing to endure pain with patience. Slitting wrists in the name of love is way easier than propelling the pain inside a warm heart that loves and accepts you for whatever you are. It's very easy to meet a billion people who take your breath away, but rare to find that one person who encourages and comforts you to breathe and waits long hours just to see you, once you find some one like them, keep them, don't let them go. It's simple to cheat on them and walk away sheepishly, abuse them, hit them, however in the long run when they turn around and let you go, you will look up and inside down and outside only to find a double taking punching heartache laughing at your smile, because letting go is courageous.
Believe their eyes when they choose you, and feel blessed for the loyalty, trust and love they have to shower upon you, for once they pronounce you left out and alone, you won't enjoy to kiss your pride. Don't push them light years away to only realise how important they were. Respect their presence because they stand tall on the learning's from their past, betrayal won't wound them for that's their foundation of strength.
If you really want to break them, dare to love them <3 and you hold the key to their heart <3 it's that simple!

P.S : Dedicated and written in the memory of everyone who have ever loved and have been loved. My heart beats for your healing in progress. Warmest hugs across. It's a floodgate of emotions when you hear a fairy tale break up of close friends. Cheating isn't required, violence isn't the solution. The whole human identity is a drama, tell me one person who isn't dramatic!? Life is a drama. Be thankful you have it. Don't just ruin and run over your own self, for a temporary settlement. Money is poor man's credit anyway, so why make it a bench mark !?
Moderation in temper is always a virtue, but moderation in principle is always a vice.

Solitary Journey :)

Your eyes are not really windows through which you look out into the world. Your eyes are cameras that send electronic images of the world into you. To get some distance from this, take a walk outside on a clear night and just look up into the sky, go ahead take a look at reality. You are sitting on a planet spinning around in the middle of absolutely nowhere, floating in an empty space in a universe that goes on forever. You’re just standing on one little ball of dirt and spinning around one of the stars.

From that perspective, imagine if you used relationships to get to know other people, rather than to satisfy what is blocked inside of you. If you're not trying to make people fit into your preconceived notions of what you like and dislike, you will find that relationships are not really that difficult. If you're not so busy judging and resisting people based upon what is blocked inside of you, you will find that they are much easier to get along with - and so are you. Letting go of yourself is the simplest way to get closer to others.

Now contemplate this, ask yourself, who are you!? The voice of your mind!? No, my dear, you are the one who hears it. Your inner friend continuously speaks up, and no matter how much trouble it causes, you listen. You don't ever tell it to leave. Ironically if someone outside really started talking to you the way your inner voice does, somebody who opened their mouth to say everything your mental voice says, just after a very short period of time, you will ask them to leave and never come back. Block them from your life in all possible ways. But if you really want to be happy, you have to let go of the part of you that wants to create melodrama.

The truth is that most of life will unfold in accordance with forces far outside your control, regardless of what your mind says about it. When you feel the pull, like somebody pulling your heart, you should just let go. Fall behind it, relax and release, because the tendency to get drawn in, is constant, which means the willingness to let go and fall behind has to be constant too. So there are two ways you can live, either, devote your whole life to the process of making sure everything fits within your limited model, or you can devote your life to freeing yourself from the limits of your model. If you have to be here, then why not choose to be happy and free!? In the end we are our choices, after all.
Spirituality is the commitment to go beyond, constantly relax and lean into your edges until you finally begin to love them , because they point your way to freedom, and one day when you least expect it, you fall through into the infinite.

P.S : None of us need more time before death, all we need is more depth of experience during the time we are given. Imagine if we knew that the next person we'd see would be the last person we would ever see!? Won't we be soaking it in, it wouldn't matter what we hear, we would just enjoy hearing each and every word spoken to us because it will be the last conversation, and now imagine this, if we brought this kind of awareness to our every conversation, how happy we all will be. This is exactly what happens when we're told that death is around the corner, we change, life doesn't change because no matter which point we set out from, they are all alike. They all lead to a point of departure 💞